Eid 1431H

Eid 1431H

For the first time after 28 years of living in this world.

A raya photo completed with all of us, including Ayah.

May the next raya, we would be able to have the same persons, complete in one photo, just like this year.

InsyaAllah.

The Day You Went Away..

Kau tau tak perasaannya bila doktor maklumkan Mak kau akan pergi dalam masa 3 hari lagi, dan kau mula menghitung setiap detik waktu, mengharapkan keajaiban, berusaha untuk berada di sisi dia sepanjang masa, walaupun dia dah tak mampu lagi bersuara, apatah lagi untuk membuka mata?

Kau tau tak rasanya bila kau duduk di sisi Mak kau, menggenggam jari jemari dia, tiba-tiba kuku dia bertukar semuanya menjadi biru secara tiba-tiba, genggaman tangan dia longlai serta-merta, denyutan nadi dia terus tiada sekelip mata?

Kau tau tak bila saat itu tiba, kau terpekik terlolong sekalipun, mata Mak kau tetap terpejam rapat, tak lagi bernyawa, yang ada cuma jasad yang terbujur di depan mata kau, keras, kaku, tak lagi akan menyahut bila kau panggil nama dia.

Berapa ramai di antara kita yang diberi peluang untuk membuat persiapan menghadapi saat kematian, menjahit sendiri pakaian untuk disarungkan sebelum dikapankan, menyediakan segala macam peralatan untuk digunakan sebelum disemadikan?

Berapa ramai pula yang redha menghadapi ujian dan dugaan Tuhan, dan tetap berjuang sehingga ke hembusan nafas terakhir, walaupun sedar harapan dah lama pudar?

Hari ni aku rasa melayang, tak jejak tanah, bila aku saksikan sendiri depan mata, betapa tenang dan mudahnya Mak Ngah pergi  dijemput sang malaikat maut untuk bertemu Pencipta Agung. Lebih buat aku mengalir air mata, melihat anak-anak dia, begitu tabah dan kuat menghadapi saat kematian seorang ibu yang sangat diorang sanjung. Kuat sangat.

Mak Ngah dah tak sakit lagi. Sebelum pergi, Mak Ngah buka mata, tengok muka semua anak dia, tersenyum manis menampakkan lesung pipit, mintak air sikit nak minum, terus tutup mata, menanti saat alat bantuan hayat dicabut. Mak Ngah sangat kuat dan tabah.

It has been a 3 year battle after all, even when she first found out in 2007, doctors could only predicted that she would only survive for the next 3 month. Fallopian tube cancer at stage 4, and keep on fighting for the next 3 years, she proved them wrong.

But today marks the end to her battle.

Moga Allah tempatkan rohnya di kalangan orang beriman.  

Al-Fatihah.

Selamat Hari Daddy!

to the best daddy in the world.

we love you so much.

and to atuk radzi and the late atuk ali.

selamat hari ayah and selamat hari abah.

adik sayang ayah, saya rindu abah.

Karma says it all, baby!

Pictures taken here

They were happily married for 11 years when suddenly you butt in.

You swear that you would do anything to make her husband yours. Anything at all. You did. And she was left alone.

Now, you have one beautiful child who was born with some unknown, weird disease, and need to be taken care of 24/7. You decided to quit your job and staying home to look after the child.

Recently, she is coming back. She looks so pretty, adorable, lovely, gorgeous, and the list goes on and on. You have no idea where was she hiding all these while, but you are sure as hell that your husband couldn’t take his eyes off her.

Well now you were left at home, looking after your sick  child alone while your husband keep going out early in the morning and coming back late at night. Every single day. Just like what he did before.

You asked me what to do. Perhaps you should ask yourself, what have you done?

Karma says it all, baby!