[S.E.M.P.U.R.N.A]

Whenever people around you start comparing the size of the rock on their fingers, all you can do is closing your mouth shut, hiding your hand on your back, realising that you had none on your fingers to compare with, and pretending a lovely smile even if you are actually crying inside. Couldn't life be easier, sometimes? How sad.

Anyway, Unhappy Valentine Day, people!

Cendol Pulut
Rojak Mamak
Roti Canai Telur
Kuah Dal
Keropok Lekor
Nasi Lemak
Sizzling Chicken Noodle
Mee Bandung
Bihun Sup
Kwey Teow Goreng Basah
Mee Goreng
Karipap
Mee Kari
Kek Marble Green Tea
Laksa Kedah
Ayam Masak Merah
Udang Goreng Kunyit
Ikan Masak Cili
Nasi Goreng Cina
Cucur Badak
Karipap Pusing
Puding Coklat
Dinner Plate KFC
Prosperity Burger McD
Choreo Big Apple Donut

And the list goes on and on and on..

In only 5 days, I've been stuffing the tummy with sinful treats, delicious delicacies, yummy dishes, and I just couldn't stop. I don't have any intention to stop. An extra 2kg displayed on the weighing scale is nothing. I believe so. KL is undeniably, a food heaven. Nuf said.

InsyaAllah, by the time this entry is published, I have safely getting on board, heading to the place where I belong, to the real world where any single memories left for me to be remembered, would only do more harm than good.

I am more than ready to be with the one who still love me, no matter how bad things were lately, and I know that I would be more stronger than ever, if I bump into the one who had just kicked me out of his life. I'll be another year older in less than 2 weeks time, and hopefully another year wiser.

Things will never be the same again, with a sudden change in our lives, just because of one decision, which had brought more tears than laughter; but come to think of it, after all these 8 freaking years, this is the best thing for both of us. Allah knows best, He always did.

I am not entirely sure if this is going to be the last time that I could see the same blueish skies, enjoying the life down under with the lovely friends whom I could always count on whenever life turning green, red, or even black, but I hope, I can still have the chance to come back here. Starting anew, getting my feet back on the ground, leaving all those sadness and madness behind. I just can't wait for things to be over, that's all I want. At least for now.

Friends, you were just like families to me, and you know who you are. I am truly sorry for not being able to be as awesome and kewlness as you guys are, but I hope we would still be friends, no matter where we go, or what we do. Thanks for being part of my life, I appreciate that. I am going to miss you guys very much, and please pray that I am going to return here safely to be with you guys again and again.

Have fun while I'm gone, don't get overboard, remember that I had completed studies, (alhamdulillah, finally) but you and you and you still had a very long way to go, and for that, I am wishing you a lot of luck. And remember that I love you so much, and I will always do. Tata for now~

Indah..
Terasa indah..
Bila kita terbuai dalam alunan cinta..
Sedapat mungkin terciptakan rasa..
Keinginan saling memiliki

Namun bila,
Itu semua dapat terwujud
Dalam satu ikatan cinta
Tak semudah seperti yang pernah terbayang..
Menyatukan perasaan....

Tetaplah menjadi bintang dilangit
Agar cinta kita akan abadi
Biarlah sinarmu tetap menyinari alam ini,
Agar menjadi saksi cinta kita
Berdua...
Berdua..

Sudah..
Lambat sudah...
Kini semua harus berakhir
Mungkin inilah jalan yang terbaik
Dan kita mesti relakan kenyataan ini

Days go by, and I still remain the same
I sit here and cry
While I eagerly keep wondering

Why you had to go?
Why you'd hurt me so?
I can't sit here and wait coz I know
You won't be coming home

I know I've done you wrong
but I've told you that I'm sorry
and it's been so long
I don't think I can go on

Am I not good enough?
I know it's all so tough
I can't ask for one last chance coz I know that
You won't be coming home

I guess this is the end
There's no use of crying
and I'll try to forget
All the things that ever happened

But still I love you so
I wish I could let go

So I'll wave you goodbye and my only friend
Is this lullaby?

Lucy in the Loo - Loser Lullaby

So here I'm standing all alone, independently on my own
Looking down, staring at my toes
What's up my head nobody know
I'm still hurt but that's okay, I was stupid, what can I say?
They seem to screw up everytime
When it's all over, it rewinds

It never seems to come out right, come out right
So we'll just walk away and I guess that's alright
And I'm always left confused but I don't mind
Now don't you worry I'll be fine

You're so convincing so I see, it's in the way you look at me
Your smile just somehow hypnotizes - to simply see truth in your eyes
So it's you I once adored, I'm not a little girl no more
Cause I am used to these kinda games, they come and go again and again

It never seems to turn out right, turn out right
So we'll just end it here and I guess that's alright
And now I'm all alone but I don't mind
When I get back I'll be fine

I'll Be Fine - Lucy in the Loo

Another 'perang status'.
no GF (^_^) it is.
Great job, no?

Shall I declare war or shall I let it go?
Undecided still.

At 1.42am, unable to sleep.

So that's it.
Well I guess that's the right thing to do.

But now you're missing your xGF?
Owwwkayyyyy~


(couldn't 'perang status' be more interesting than this? haih)

I am officially boyfriendless.
Finally.